Month: March 2014
Work’s been hella busy these last couple of weeks. Our evenings have been spent chilling on the couch or playing video games. Sex has been lazy and slow. Energy levels seem to be at an all-time low at the moment, for both of us.
I’ve also massively failed at my healthy eating routine, having eaten several takeaways this week and far too many evening snacks. It’s made me feel quite down, which leads me to eating more unhealthy snacks and it just feels like a massive vicious cycle at the moment. I feel like I have virtually no willpower and it makes me feel a bit ashamed because I know I need to do something about my weight and fitness levels. I just need to stop being so goddamn lazy.
Kickstarting it again this week and hopefully it will give me the energy boost I need to get our sex-life the little punch it needs. I’ll concentrate my efforts this week on making low-fat, tasty, high-energy food (any ideas/recommendations are most welcomed?).
His birthday is coming up this week and I have something awesome planned, which I can’t tell you about because he might read it!
Don’t get me wrong, I like getting my period. It’s confirmation that I’m not pregnant, which is awesome news every month. But hell, this one has dragged itself out a little bit too long now and I’d like it just to leave so that I can have sex again.
It’s been 6 days since my last orgasm. I feel like I’m about to self implode. This weekend was particularly difficult because I had to spend it with the sexiest little creature on earth. He’s so intoxicating. The way he looks, the way he sounds, the way he smells, how he touches me so gently…..
I did of course give him lots of play-time. It helps me a lot actually, being able to still engage in sexual activity with him, even if I don’t get off myself. I had a pretty good wet dream as well which helped and I think he got some pretty good orgasms too.His parents are over this weekend which means we probably won’t get much play-time…. feeling frustrated but also happy. How does that make sense?
1. How anal some of the moderators are.
Some of them just utterly delight in powertripping all over your face and taking their job WAY too seriously.
I’ll give you an example – I asked a question which was “describe subspace using only adjectives” in the “Ask a Submissive” forum. My thread got closed because apparently there was a sticky that covered this. There wasn’t! The closest sticky I could find was “What makes you submissive?” What in the actual fuck? How is that moderation? So we’re not allowed to discuss any of the topics that are sticked at all, despite the fact that some of the “stickies” are no more than 2-3 lines or don’t go into any detail or are total dogshit? What the fuck is the point of having groups then? Why not just sticky everything? Why bother having a forum for OPEN DISCUSSION?
2. Kinky & Popular
When’s the last time you saw an attractive male on K&P? When’s the last time you saw something you could even vaguely classify as “kinky” on K&P? I’m not talking about selfies of naked chicks in front of their bathroom mirrors or a picture of some chick in a corset. I mean, really? That’s the best the fetish community can come up with? All that does is prove to me that Fetlife is full of vanilla guys.
If you don’t worship or pay tribute to some of the more popular people or agree with everything that they say, no matter how fucking retarded, then you instantly get shot down by everyone around you. It bothers me that people in the fetish community can be so narrow-minded… I mean, c’mon, learn to think for yourself… at least sometimes form your own opinon?
4. Private Messages
I made a whole post about this once, where, I get submissive guys messaging me without bothering to first read my profile. I’m cool with the people who are like “oh hey, nice profile, bla bla bla whatever, just being friendly”. That’s fine. It’s the guys that are like “oh hey, im a sub, want to be my domme?” Well actually, no, you fucknugget, I really really don’t. My profile clearly states that i’m in a monogamous relationship. Is it so hard to believe that a domme might be satisfied by having one submissive?
5. The interface/layout
It’s so terrible, outdated and awkward and despite being a supporter and giving them lots of money, it still has the most horrifically arcane interface I’ve ever had the displeasure of encountering.
Last night was a tantalising mix of orgasm denial and forced orgasm. The evening started with a slow, lazy relaxing shared bath. I had it ready for him coming in from work. We sat there and soaked, had a smoke and drank some tea. After that I prepared a strange dinner of crepes, bacon and vanilla icecream – it was Pancake Tuesday so that had to be honoured. Afterward we cuddled up on the couch and watched and spent the evening watching Better Off Ted (season 1, which I’d totally recommend) and having a smoke. We ambled down to bed at around midnight and cuddled / chatted for a bit.
My hands started wandering, as they always do when I have a lovely naked man in my bed. I began stroking him ever so slowly and softly. I told him that I wanted to use him tonight and that I wouldn’t be letting him cum for a few days. He grew harder at the prospect and lay there moaning as I brought him up to orgasm over and over again, stopping just before he couldn’t handle anymore. I decided to have one myself so I fucked him for a little bit until I came.
Afterward I held him for another while and began teasing him again, bringing him close to orgasm then stopping. He came so very close, so many times, while i used so many different techniques. One of my favourite techniques to use is getting him so horny that merely rubbing his cock with one hand, without gripping, is enough to almost send him over the edge. Without warning, I sped up and he exploded in my hand. He’d had a rough day, I wasn’t going to let him go to sleep without a nice orgasm.. He is my little pet afterall.