Lacking in willpower

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Work’s been hella busy these last couple of weeks.  Our evenings have been spent chilling on the couch or playing video games.  Sex has been lazy and slow.  Energy levels seem to be at an all-time low at the moment, for both of us.

I’ve also massively failed at my healthy eating routine, having eaten several takeaways this week and far too many evening snacks.  It’s made me feel quite down, which leads me to eating more unhealthy snacks and it just feels like a massive vicious cycle at the moment.  I feel like I have virtually no willpower and it makes me feel a bit ashamed because I know I need to do something about my weight and fitness levels.  I just need to stop being so goddamn lazy.

Kickstarting it again this week and hopefully it will give me the energy boost I need to get our sex-life the little punch it needs.  I’ll concentrate my efforts this week on making low-fat, tasty, high-energy food (any ideas/recommendations are most welcomed?).

His birthday is coming up this week and I have something awesome planned, which I can’t tell you about because he might read it! 

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